There is something something so romantic about blogging in an airport while you are waiting for a flight to New York. All I need next to me is a stiff martini. Instead, I have a seat belt extender to help keep my anxiety at bay while I worry about being embarassed about not fitting in my seat.
I know that I am not alone when it comes to being anxious flying. We all have our “things” and mine is metal and always sets off the security censor on the way to the gate.
And since I’m already vulnerable, I’m going to share with you some picture of this shoot that I was not planning on sharing.
I took these photos during winter because I’ve always wanted to have an oversize comfy sweater. I’ve never thought of myself as someone that can pull off the sweater look, but I wanted to try. I found a sweater in one of my current favorite colors, and it felt like fate. I was so excited to to take these photos because for the first time I looked at myself in the mirror with a sweater on and I was happy with what I saw.
Weeks later when I got the pictures back, I went into some turmoil. How could I possible have styled this sweater this way? I pulled my bangs back and showed off my 10 head. I felt like I was seeing all the things that I was scared of seeing, so I didn’t share these with you. I held on to them. They hid in a safe place on my computer that no one had access to.
I just got done with my latest photo shoot, and I went back to the secret safe space– and there they were. Waiting for me. I’m not going to lie. I still am not in love with they way I look in them, but they are no where near the place I overdramatized them to in my head.
So today as a stand to empower myself to accept how I look, here they are.
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